I ended up calling my doctor’s office yesterday, and the nurse of my favorite doctor answered the phone. I asked her if I could come in to speak with Dr. M about my questions and concerns because I have been considerably stressed out. She said of course, and set me up an appointment.
Right when Dr. M came in, she asked me what my concerns and questions were and seemed genuinely interested in helping me. I told her how worried I was about the contractions and taking this medicine. She told me not worry about the contractions- they are normal starting at 20 weeks and I am just one of those “lucky” people that feels absolutely everything. She said not to take the medicine because it’s unnecessary unless the contractions start to hurt. She promised that the medicine and BH contractions had not harmed Knox and that all was well.
Then, I don’t really remember what she said, but I burst into tears! I had been so upset and stressed out, I guess it all just spilled out. She felt so bad for me, gave me tissues and wanted to know if my sobbing was because of hormones or stress and wondered if I had a good support system. I promised her that my support system was great, and I just explained (through the tears) that I had just been so anxious and afraid for so long. She asked what she could do to make me relax and she wanted to know what made me the most nervous. I told her the cervical length and preterm labor were driving me crazy and that I wanted another internal u/s. She said she’d be happy to give me an u/s, but that my insurance wouldn’t cover it since I just had one, but I could still have one if it was important. She promised that doing a manual exam was a better indication for her and that she could tell cervical length pretty accurately. So, that’s what we did and everything looked great. She showed me with her hand how long my cervix was and checked on Knox with the doppler.
Turns out, she also knows my old fave doctor, Dr. T, really well and sends her email updates on her former patients. She was unaware that I had been one of her patients, but was excited to find this out. That made me feel better, too. I asked her if I could switch doctors to her, and she said of course. I just have to meet the one other doctor that I haven’t met, then I can see her for the rest of the pregnancy. I told her switching around was stressing me out, so she’s trying to alleviate some of that. I know I have to meet everyone, but man, it sucks when you have questions and they all have a different answer for you. She said not to feel bad if I was nervous and needed to come in and see her, and that I could call whenever I needed to. Finally I feel comfortable. It is such a huge relief!
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