Here I am, just under three months away from being potentially unemployed. It’s a stressful place to be. My current job is being eliminated (the whole office is closing), so I am on a mad dash to find a new job. I have sent in tons of job applications, already gotten those nicely worded rejection letters and check daily on the status pages to see if I’ve moved any further into the application process. It’s maddening. Not only am I trying to find something, I really want to find something that I will love. I am tired of disliking my work, and I am very ready to feel fulfilled by what I do.
When I get disappointed, overwhelmed or anxious in this search, I try to tell myself that God has a bigger plan for me. That’s why I am here. He doesn’t want me where I am right now, but He has a plan for where I am going. I use the “Jesus Calling” devotional frequently, and last night I felt the need to read it. I’m glad that I did because the passage it referenced was the very same that my pastor preached on this past Sunday. I love when that happens because I feel like God is really trying to bring my attention to something. The sermon was on Genesis 28- when Jacob is traveling from Beersheeba to Harran, and he stops for the night and has the vision of a stairway to heaven.
Our pastor preached that there, in that unknown place, God met Jacob right where he was. That God meets us in the middle- when we don’t know where we are or what we’re doing. Going from one named place to another is a secure feeling. To know where you’re coming from and where you’re going. But that’s not always possible, is it? Isn’t it so comforting to know that God will meet us in that place, when we’re moving out from one place and blindly walking to another? We want to KNOW where we are, but in the midst of the unknown, God is never in the dark. He always knows where we’re going.
For Jacob, He showed up right in the no-name place between Beersheeba and Harran. I hope that for me, He shows up right here between job security and a whole new venture. That’s where you look for him. Where you’ve lost your security, and you’re in the middle. That’s where He shows up. I hope that God can use this time to strengthen my faith in Him and lead me where He would have me go.
“When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he thought, “Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it.” He was afraid and said, “How awesome is this place! This is none other than the house of God; this is the gate of heaven.”” (Genesis 28:16-17)