I cannot begin to say how thankful I am for all of you. Yesterday was a rough day, and I was so hesitant to even post about the way I’ve been feeling. You made me feel so supported and loved, it was unbelievable in the best kind of way. I read every one of your kind and sincere comments, and if you emailed me, I promise that a response is coming soon- I just don’t have much time to myself at the moment! You guys helped me see that my feelings are valid and that this thing doesn’t have to define me- and it won’t!
I talked to my doctor’s office today, and I have started taking a low dose of Zoloft. I took it before trying to get pregnant for anxiety, so I know that it works well for me. The best part is that it is safe for breast feeding, so I don’t have to give that up. My OB and Brody’s pediatrician okayed it, and I’ve done research on my own, as well, and am comfortable taking it while nursing. As challenging as Brody’s eating issues have been, breast feeding is of the utmost importance to me. I know that if I quit, once I feel like myself again that would be a decision I would strongly regret. It was one of my happiest memories from Knox’s babyhood, and after 13 months of nursing with him, I definitely want Brody to have the same experience, if not for even longer.
Every child is definitely different, and bless his heart, Brody does not mean to be difficult! The poor guy has a stomachache the majority of the time, and I really feel like if we can figure out why he’s so uncomfortable all the time, he will be so much easier to deal with. I think his reflux is much better, but he is still so incredibly gassy. I am determined to get him happy, I just need to make sure I don’t lose my mind during the wait! I feel very relieved to have started on a course of action to get myself back to normal.
Thank you again, so much, for all of your support and prayers. It means the world to me, and I feel so fortunate to have such an amazing community of women to share my feelings with. Sometimes blogging is about venting, but I swear, it’s really nice to be able to vent AND get a ton of advice on top of that emotional release. It’s truly an amazing thing, and I appreciate each and every one of you! Thanks for being there.